I think this shows how much my outlook on life has changed. I get messages off people telling me I'm an inspiration and I'm brave etc. I couldn't have felt more the opposite. It was not too long ago I was cowering under my sons Spider-Man blanket having agrophobia about having to go to asda to get food. I very nearly had my bag packed to go and bang on the door of broadoak and say "can you show me where the wicker baskets are kept, I need to weave a few". Sat in the corner on soroxat, rocking etc etc.
BUT the grim fog has lifted and I am beginning to laugh and smile again!
I'm even enjoying work! Well I wouldn't go that far, more I'm enjoying the banter of my mates there.
There's these 2 lads on my team and just listening to their conversation cracks me up. Charlie said "dya know what he drew yesterday? A picture of him, ejaculating over my kids" so I said eeeeeeeeee!!! And he said "yeah, it was a stick man, with a penis, and a broken dotted wavy line representing jizzum, and then 2 stick kids labeled with my kids names".
So then nick piped up "yeah, only coz Charlie drew an ISIS terrorist holding the severed head of my fiancé". So then Kevin goes "yeah well u are a terrorist", an then he said to me "he was in the ira you know" (nicks Irish).
Totally politically incorrect banter which made me fucking howl!!! Then one of the girls was saying it's her birthday next week and she was fuming coz her family had forgotten and then she said "yeah and if my brothers bird gets me another bottle of fucking ck one she's getting doused in it and set on fire"!
That's the thing about working in an office, you do have a fucking laugh! It feels good to see the funny side of stuff again!!
Went to a law of attraction class last night which encourages people to live positively and use positive thought to attract positive things into your life! I have used this in the past successfully and I have decided this is the way I am going to live my life from now on. I'm sick of being a miserable cunt and so I'm going to actively use the LOA purposefully! Waking up every morning thinking of all I have to be grateful for, visualising what I want every single day and believing that it will happen!!
Iv also drew a little vision board with what I want on it and stuck it by my bed! On the list is a flat stomach, abundance of money, meet someone and have mutual love and respect, passion and commitment, and HAPPINESS!! Il keep you posted on how I get on! Xx
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