Christmas Blog!

Good evening campers! You will notice there has been a distinct lack of blogging action recently for which I would like to offer my deepest apologies. My blogging output tends to be in direct proportion to my depression levels and for the last few months I have mainly felt pretty fucking decent!!!

So as you are probably all aware the ex was sentenced to 140 hours community service, a 400 quid fine, 12mths probation and of course told in no uncertain terms to never darken my (owned not rented) doorway ever again! He was deported back down south and I could finally move on with my life!!!

I have to say once I had got through the shitty heartbreak part, Iv actually had a pretty good fucking time! Iv been to Dublin with friends, Paris for my birthday, concerts, parties, a SMALL sprinkling of casual sex just to keep the loins pumping and the main part of all is I realised I'm still FUCKING FABULOUS!

Believe me realising that was no easy task having been under the impression im a nothing for the past year. But realise it I did, and now it takes a LOT to wipe the smile off my face. In fact it's pretty much a hangover that's the only thing that will truly do it!!

Iv been setting myself small goals each month, just stupid stuff like get a new hair cut or redecorate a room and I swear to god that's helped me no end. When I look back over the last few months and see how far Iv come im not ashamed to admit that I'm pretty fucking proud of myself!!

Also a massive huge boost to me is the amount of people who have contacted mean out their own experiences. Iv actively helped 4 different chicks escape their abusive relationships and Iv also found deep long lasting friendships with many more. Almost shedding a proud tear here!

So yeah, everything's fucking awesome! Iv got an amazing support network of friends and family and I am so grateful to have as much love as I do! So no "new year new me" shouts from me kids, I'm staying exactly the bloody same!!! Xxxx