Almost there!!!

It's been a little while since I last babbled on so I thought I would write a little blog this evening!

First of all....I'm just going to say it... I am fucking proud of myself.

This time last year I had a vague idea that I fancied going to uni. Today I have just completed one of my final assessments which was a debate and I have just 3 more assignments and an exam to do before I'm done. Not just done, SMASHED IT. I mean I could potentially still massively fuck up the situation but honestly I think I am home safe now. 14 assignments down, 3 to go.... Even if I write utter shit for these final assignments my work through the year SHOULD carry me through to a first. I AM OVER THE MOON. I know I shouldn't be counting my chickens just yet but on the whole I think I have this shit handled. It is a crazy feeling. I have completely changed my life from this time 12months ago and I am heading in a direction I actually want to go in. I am 90percent sure I will keep on my current job part time just for a bit of pocket money but the main focus of my life come September will be studying. I am so excited its unbelievable!!!

Shall we have a bit of boy talk? I have sort of stayed quiet about talking on the dude front because really there has been no one really worth mentioning recently but I just have to point out the weirdest thing happened today...

Round about November time I had a very short lived fling with a guy from uni. Only around a month or so, nothing serious at all so it was barely worth mentioning but basically what happened was this guy was originally half seeing a girl who ended up moving to Spain. In November I found myself suddenly available and i'm not sure if it was coincidence or if he was stalking me or what but within precisely 6 hours of my single status he had asked me out. I had liked him for a while, he is really clever, tall, fit, drives a bmw, ticked a lot of boxes really so anyway we had a bit of a fling for about a month or so but THEN Spain girl moved back to the uk!!! Now me being the totally sound girl that I am decided to take a step back at this point because I kind of thought really they should be together and she saw him first so I did the decent thing and backed away.....albeit onto my ex boyfriends cock but that's besides the point. ANYWAY uni boy and spain girl got together and are currently living happily ever after.

Now I still see uni boy obviously in uni but I have kind of kept my distance a bit because yano its a bit awkward isn't it when theres been a bit of activity. There was no bad feeling or anything I just said listen I think now spain girls back I am gonna just back off a bit and he was like oh ok sound and that was that. ANYWAY he is in one of my classes and today I shit you not he was staring at me for an hour and a half. Now I did have a bit of a cleavage situation on the go so that might have been it but honest to God he was STARING AT ME. I didn't make eye contact. We had to do this debate thing so he could have legitimately starred at me for like 20minutes while I was talking but this continued after I sat down and other people were talking. I put it down to the tits.

THEN after class I was standing outside having a ciggie and he walked right up to me, put his hands on my waist and tickled me and then asked me for a light. So I gave him my lighter and then when he was giving it back he did this weird hand holdy thing. What the hell is going on??!!! He is still with Spain girl. I know he is still with spain girl. He knows I know he is still with spain girl. What the fuck sort of outfit does he think i'm running here?!!!!!!!! I've been round the block enough times to know a come on when I see one. No. Just No.

Such a shame as well because he was a lovely lad with loads of potential but now I can't really be mates with him because he has automatically categorised himself as a cunt.

After the debacle with the ex I have managed to go a whole 3 weeks without speaking to him and I have managed to pull myself out of the fog now. After a plethora of perfectly nice but frightfully boring potential men I decided to implement a self imposed cock ban until September. I decided to focus on uni work, party my way through the summer and then in September I can aquaint myself with thousands of brand new, educated men. I am going to try and do my first full time uni year single because I don't want to waste the opportunity to be a slut. I haven't been a slut for ages and I think it's about time I rediscovered my calling.

So yes that's where i'm up to. Life is bloody fantastic right now and the future is looking epic

xxxx